Being a senior

Becoming a senior is not scary to me. But its not as fun as I thought it would be. I have a feeling this is going to be a very stressful year for me. I'm not at the top of my class and my grades are not what they should be sooooo the whole applying and getting ready for college thing is not going to be easy or fun. I also very concerned to come face to face with our college counselor because he is soo fucking hurtful. HE DONT CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS, but I guess that's jsut what some of these children need in thier lifes. I already know I fucked up and shit gonna be hard so he can just keep clam with me. I have a plan but I don't know how that's going to turn out. Next there is my friends. During my junior year I lost and gained same friend. More gained than lost. There is Tasmeen and Bianca who I known since 5th grade and Elijah who I known since 9th .... these are the people I seem to hang with the most lately. Now shamia I known since I was a baby, we not that close but she will always be my home girl and I know I can go talk to her about anything. Then there's Al-nisa. She use yo be my best friend , everytine you saw her I was there,  when you saw me she was there. As time went on we just grew apart and we're going separate ways but she will always be a good friend of mine. Lastly there is my cousin I-deja. She is my best my world and she probably know more about me than my own mother. I love her with all my heart and I'll always be there for her. SO I KNOW that Im going to have support while going through my senior year and I'm not scared. I'm just curious about how things are going to turn out.

Am I Weird !?!?

I love werewolf's with a passion. I mean I'm already a dog person. Then they make a sexy teenage boy turn in to a strong power werewolf with sexy glowing eyes which makes him bout 40% sexier!! I find that freaking awesome or am I just weird? WELL I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK .... my favorite show now is teen wolf.. I never use to watch cause I never took the time out to do so but now I watch every Monday , sometime Tuesdays if I have to watch the recording. I would love to be a werewolf there's just a few downfalls ... Well I might have to follow an Alpha wolf until I become one( I WILL BECOME ONE! )  other wolfs might try and kill me and some crazy person might be after me and trying to kill also. The wolfs were the only reason I watched twilight ..don't get me wrong I like vampires and stuff but just not as much.
I also really like pizza, I can eat it for days
I'm not weird!!!
I'm just not you  ^__^  

High School Sucks

Most people can and or well be able look back on their high school years and say "Man I miss those times" and "I had the times of my life back then" to those people I say FUCK YOU .. High school is the worst thing that ever happened to me. I wish I could just speed through it and get it over with. Movies and TV shows make high school look like its suppose to be this life changing experience that everyone will one day be grateful for . Not me. I have been going to school with half of the kids I go to school with now since the freaking 5th grade and I hate it sooooooo much. Mind you I'm in the 11th grade now, hopefully going to the 12th grade. Not only do I not like most of the kids, my parents are no help. They think they know everything that I go through and how I feel, well they don't. Maybe if they did know how stressed I am form day to day maybe they wouldn't be so aggregating. I'm not saying I haven't made some life long friends because I did but over all I hate high school. I'm not a school person and ever have been. Hopeful by the time its time to make choices for after high school I will be a school person but I dout it. But forreal now, I don't know if its the school or the people or me but I really hate high school. Its suppose to open things for me but I feel like its keeping back from much more. Like my life fucking sucks because of school . its not fun and all it do is stress me . OMG i feel like i said to much . But to recap everything for just incase to started to skim over things.

 I FUCKING HATE HIGH SCHOOL !!!!

I didn't like middle school that much neither  

Make-up is evil

 

The greatest trick that the devil ever pulled was convincing women that they looked

better in their makeup.

    ~ Macklemore

I love Macklemore music and this quote is so true. I see beautiful people everyday who chose to pile a whole bunch of junk on their face. Barbie don't even have that much makeup. Her lips are pink yet the girls walking around here lips are pink, purple, blue, black, green, gold, etc. I'm not saying makeup is a bad thing at all. Its fun to wear. I personally don't wear makeup unless its for something special like a wedding or prom. I won’t wear it to go to school or to the movies and definitely somewhere like the park. Honestly everybody should be comfortable with their body and the way they look. If people didn't constantly compare themselves to nice shaped famous figures and models on tv and magazines then they wouldn't have low self esteem and would be alive right not because they never would have completed their suicide mission. And the same thing goes for guys …

you dont have to look like this,

or this,

 

In order to be sexy

 

But if you really want to look like that then you might want to start working out and saving up your money for lots of make-up because its not cheap. Well that's all I have to say on topic.

 

Fact : Most lipstick contains fish scales .....